Move on, work harder.

3 hours a day, 4 days a week, 1 hour bus back and forth, back and forth for 2 years.
The memorable times that I've spent training Judo in HCI with all those cool mates. . . It is regretful that I didn't make it to Hwa Chong in the end. I got the news that the coach there actually announced to everyone from the team in a very sad tone that I failed my O levels. I didn't know that sir were anticipating my presence there so much, in the end to be extremely disappointed when I didn't make it. I feel very sorry for him...

But probably, HCJC isn't in my path, Judo isn't my thing at all, and probably God is just not letting me go to the wrong way. This could've been a fateful ending for me. To waste the best chance that I could have got. Well, probably that's how it's supposed to be after all. I always got a problem in the past at the very last minute which fatally crashed everything down and shattered my only hope. And to say that I put my 100% hope and trust in this O level and believed in my performance, this complete failure turned me down miserably.

And to be serious if there is only one person in Fuchun secondary school that I really hate, that must be Ms. Rohaini (or Rohani, I don't know). She is the last person I wanna see in the whole school, the fat and round face gave me the creeps every time she looked at me. And with her so called "fair" treatment she gave to the students like me, I just hoped she didn't teach me English at all. I know her English is superb, probably way much better than me. She could have got an A1 for the paper and I get a D7. And to make matters worse, when I received the shocking results, she came over to me with a smirk on her face showing full satisfaction, using words which I felt was no different than an insult, she was talking and smiling at the same time with a condescending tone to me, as if to tell me that "This is what you got for not listening to me, stupid boy" Honestly, she reminds me of that evil witch that took over Dumbledore's position as headmaster in Hogwarts, I can't remember her name. Mind you, she likes to use the word "stupidity" on me. And she even thought that I was over-complacent. Yes she is like Ms. Cynthia Tan, or my uncle. Whatever. I just don't like these people. The only people I hate. When I wanted to appeal for remarking my English paper, she almost turned me down by saying it's a waste of time (which teacher will do that?).

I know it's bad to talk about this behind people's back and as a student, I should have respects for teachers as well as my uncle. But nobody is perfect anyway, at least I didn't insult other people with inappropriate words, except for when I'm too pissed. Talk about being right...... I am still aiming to be a better person every day.

Anyway, I'm going for Ngee Ann Poly and my first choice is Biomedical Science, hopefully I get in. Whatever happens, I will still have to work hard. It's not the end yet and I shouldn't let anymore failure affecting my future.

Just move on.

But probably I can't continue my dream of studying philosophy or psychology anymore. -.-

What a waste.

"Failure is the mother of Success."

But at least now I know those who are delighted when I failed to get to HCI. I would happily tell them to fuck off.

Yes and with this kind of English, I get a D7. I know I don't use bombastic words or such, they are not my type.