Damn irritating.
It's already 11:17 PM and I still couldn't sleep.
I'm so worried about my Chemistry. I did a practise paper today and after checking through the answer, all I got was only an embarrassing B3. I've lost my scoring ability for Chemistry. I guess I have to drop Chemistry nevertheless. It's a waste actually, to study for four years then drop it.
But right now I can't sleep.
So many things have happened.
I saw a SHOOTING STAR.
a few days ago.
I couldn't remember what I had wished.
But I hope it will come true eventually.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
September 24 2008
Only I can solve my own problem.
Even though I stopped thinking about her, and tried to carry on with my own life, I still cannot completely put her out of my mind.
She is there. Just one call and I can talk to her, and I can tell her "I miss you so much." and tell her how much I love her, how much I need her. But I just couldn't do it, I just stared at the number blankly then put down my handphone, I have long lost the will to talk to her again, such a coward. She is my motivational source and the reason why I stand up whenever I fall down. There is no other girl in the world, no matter how pretty, that can replace her in my heart. But I didn't have enough strength to talk to her.
I wonder why I had to have a crush on her. Probably god wanted to enlighten my path. She was the person who had changed me completely, inside out.
Just now I met a girl from Civic center. she looked perfectly normal, or what I would call is very ordinary, just like any other schoolgirls. But one thing that struck me is that she looked EXACTLY like her, from the body figure, posture to hairstyle, everything almost the same, except for her face, which is slightly more good-looking. I was half-dead when I saw her, and I almost felt the urge to talk to her, to ask for her number. SHE DID LOOKED BACK AT ME, not once or twice, but 5 times, well man I think she also likes me, for a shortwhile. I regretted not asking that ACJC girl.
Even though I stopped thinking about her, and tried to carry on with my own life, I still cannot completely put her out of my mind.
She is there. Just one call and I can talk to her, and I can tell her "I miss you so much." and tell her how much I love her, how much I need her. But I just couldn't do it, I just stared at the number blankly then put down my handphone, I have long lost the will to talk to her again, such a coward. She is my motivational source and the reason why I stand up whenever I fall down. There is no other girl in the world, no matter how pretty, that can replace her in my heart. But I didn't have enough strength to talk to her.
I wonder why I had to have a crush on her. Probably god wanted to enlighten my path. She was the person who had changed me completely, inside out.
Just now I met a girl from Civic center. she looked perfectly normal, or what I would call is very ordinary, just like any other schoolgirls. But one thing that struck me is that she looked EXACTLY like her, from the body figure, posture to hairstyle, everything almost the same, except for her face, which is slightly more good-looking. I was half-dead when I saw her, and I almost felt the urge to talk to her, to ask for her number. SHE DID LOOKED BACK AT ME, not once or twice, but 5 times, well man I think she also likes me, for a shortwhile. I regretted not asking that ACJC girl.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
September 15 2008
Cool.
I studied like mad for Chemistry and all I get is 53/80. Utterly disappointing.
I'm wondering if I should continue studying Chemistry during JC time.
Right now I'm having an interest in China Studies. heh =). Sounds more interesting. But Chemistry in JC is more practical than in O level. It would be useful in life, but the point is I don't like Chemistry, not a tiny bit.
The physics paper was impossibly difficult. I managed to finish fast but there were still confusion here and there. Everyone got different answers. I even had doubts about my answers, all the numbers and logic jumbled up in my mind. Soon I will be gone crazy.
And this is the first time when I spent the whole 2 hr 30 minutes to finish the Maths paper, but still didn't manage to finish it.
There are only 10 questions, but all of them takes 1-whole-paper-long solution and mistakes are very likely to occur. As I was doing, I felt a surge of a strangely familiar and nostagic feelings. I always had this kind of feelings in the past when I was struggling for Maths papers only. This time it came out from nowhere again. The feeling was hard to describe. I could only give a vague idea that it was like something, or someone innocent and harmless-looking immediately turns heroic and agressive in a tick of time. I know it does not make any slightest rational sense, even in an imaginary way. I also don't understand, probably because I was nervous or something.
Does that mean I have not been nervous for so long?
After the papers, I went back and spent the whole afternoon reading Black Valley by Jim Brown, and finished it. Everything written inside was crap, nonsense, futuristic and is a just-for-relax type. It talked about physics, Supernatural, Science, but mostly revolves around time travel, and unbelievable events, and it is fiction. I swear I don't understand all of them, and I doubted if the writer really had any idea what he was writing, and I felt that reading it was a total waste of time. However I was so hooked to it because I love the suspense he was able to create, the gore and violence, blood, sex particularly. The book also contained humours here and there. The book shows another unreal theory (probably, I'm not sure) of quantum physics which I don't know what the heck it is. This leads to time-space travel and stuffs. Some of the characters actually have similar characteristics as I am.
I rate it 7/10. =)
Here I am writing crap when tomorrow there is Physics P1 and A.Maths P2? And it's already 11.09 PM.
I wonder what career I want to do in the future. I don't seem to have interest in anything in life. After all I'm still a wanderer.
I want to join the army. =) I enjoy physical training.
obliterating is the new word I learnt.
I studied like mad for Chemistry and all I get is 53/80. Utterly disappointing.
I'm wondering if I should continue studying Chemistry during JC time.
Right now I'm having an interest in China Studies. heh =). Sounds more interesting. But Chemistry in JC is more practical than in O level. It would be useful in life, but the point is I don't like Chemistry, not a tiny bit.
The physics paper was impossibly difficult. I managed to finish fast but there were still confusion here and there. Everyone got different answers. I even had doubts about my answers, all the numbers and logic jumbled up in my mind. Soon I will be gone crazy.
And this is the first time when I spent the whole 2 hr 30 minutes to finish the Maths paper, but still didn't manage to finish it.
There are only 10 questions, but all of them takes 1-whole-paper-long solution and mistakes are very likely to occur. As I was doing, I felt a surge of a strangely familiar and nostagic feelings. I always had this kind of feelings in the past when I was struggling for Maths papers only. This time it came out from nowhere again. The feeling was hard to describe. I could only give a vague idea that it was like something, or someone innocent and harmless-looking immediately turns heroic and agressive in a tick of time. I know it does not make any slightest rational sense, even in an imaginary way. I also don't understand, probably because I was nervous or something.
Does that mean I have not been nervous for so long?
After the papers, I went back and spent the whole afternoon reading Black Valley by Jim Brown, and finished it. Everything written inside was crap, nonsense, futuristic and is a just-for-relax type. It talked about physics, Supernatural, Science, but mostly revolves around time travel, and unbelievable events, and it is fiction. I swear I don't understand all of them, and I doubted if the writer really had any idea what he was writing, and I felt that reading it was a total waste of time. However I was so hooked to it because I love the suspense he was able to create, the gore and violence, blood, sex particularly. The book also contained humours here and there. The book shows another unreal theory (probably, I'm not sure) of quantum physics which I don't know what the heck it is. This leads to time-space travel and stuffs. Some of the characters actually have similar characteristics as I am.
I rate it 7/10. =)
Here I am writing crap when tomorrow there is Physics P1 and A.Maths P2? And it's already 11.09 PM.
I wonder what career I want to do in the future. I don't seem to have interest in anything in life. After all I'm still a wanderer.
I want to join the army. =) I enjoy physical training.
obliterating is the new word I learnt.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
September 13 2008
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUfpKzdLtec
Omarion is my new favourite.
awesome R&B.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YamDStEvwPE&feature=related
And this is another awesome piano piece, playing to Ice Box by Omarion.
Omarion is my new favourite.
awesome R&B.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YamDStEvwPE&feature=related
And this is another awesome piano piece, playing to Ice Box by Omarion.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
September 10 2008
I love instrumental music. It makes me feel like myself.
Back to Prelim exam.
I am dead with Social Studies. I only did 3 source-based questions. Not because I didn't have enough time. It's because I was too tired and didn't bother to continue. Failure is a sure thing.
A. Maths. Definitely much better than Social Studies paper, but also pretty much the same. Skipped a few questions, a few wrongs. I hate making mistakes. A. Maths is just damn fucking irritating because you can make mistakes easily. I have to practise more.
Now that I realized. I should have taken arts instead of A.Maths.
Ken told me that I have been becoming more and more an arty type recently. The fact is that I want to become more arty and sporty more than being brainy.
Back to Prelim exam.
I am dead with Social Studies. I only did 3 source-based questions. Not because I didn't have enough time. It's because I was too tired and didn't bother to continue. Failure is a sure thing.
A. Maths. Definitely much better than Social Studies paper, but also pretty much the same. Skipped a few questions, a few wrongs. I hate making mistakes. A. Maths is just damn fucking irritating because you can make mistakes easily. I have to practise more.
Now that I realized. I should have taken arts instead of A.Maths.
Ken told me that I have been becoming more and more an arty type recently. The fact is that I want to become more arty and sporty more than being brainy.
Friday, September 5, 2008
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