September 15 2008

Cool.

I studied like mad for Chemistry and all I get is 53/80. Utterly disappointing.

I'm wondering if I should continue studying Chemistry during JC time.

Right now I'm having an interest in China Studies. heh =). Sounds more interesting. But Chemistry in JC is more practical than in O level. It would be useful in life, but the point is I don't like Chemistry, not a tiny bit.

The physics paper was impossibly difficult. I managed to finish fast but there were still confusion here and there. Everyone got different answers. I even had doubts about my answers, all the numbers and logic jumbled up in my mind. Soon I will be gone crazy.

And this is the first time when I spent the whole 2 hr 30 minutes to finish the Maths paper, but still didn't manage to finish it.

There are only 10 questions, but all of them takes 1-whole-paper-long solution and mistakes are very likely to occur. As I was doing, I felt a surge of a strangely familiar and nostagic feelings. I always had this kind of feelings in the past when I was struggling for Maths papers only. This time it came out from nowhere again. The feeling was hard to describe. I could only give a vague idea that it was like something, or someone innocent and harmless-looking immediately turns heroic and agressive in a tick of time. I know it does not make any slightest rational sense, even in an imaginary way. I also don't understand, probably because I was nervous or something.

Does that mean I have not been nervous for so long?

After the papers, I went back and spent the whole afternoon reading Black Valley by Jim Brown, and finished it. Everything written inside was crap, nonsense, futuristic and is a just-for-relax type. It talked about physics, Supernatural, Science, but mostly revolves around time travel, and unbelievable events, and it is fiction. I swear I don't understand all of them, and I doubted if the writer really had any idea what he was writing, and I felt that reading it was a total waste of time. However I was so hooked to it because I love the suspense he was able to create, the gore and violence, blood, sex particularly. The book also contained humours here and there. The book shows another unreal theory (probably, I'm not sure) of quantum physics which I don't know what the heck it is. This leads to time-space travel and stuffs. Some of the characters actually have similar characteristics as I am.

I rate it 7/10. =)

Here I am writing crap when tomorrow there is Physics P1 and A.Maths P2? And it's already 11.09 PM.

I wonder what career I want to do in the future. I don't seem to have interest in anything in life. After all I'm still a wanderer.

I want to join the army. =) I enjoy physical training.

obliterating is the new word I learnt.