September 24 2008

Only I can solve my own problem.

Even though I stopped thinking about her, and tried to carry on with my own life, I still cannot completely put her out of my mind.

She is there. Just one call and I can talk to her, and I can tell her "I miss you so much." and tell her how much I love her, how much I need her. But I just couldn't do it, I just stared at the number blankly then put down my handphone, I have long lost the will to talk to her again, such a coward. She is my motivational source and the reason why I stand up whenever I fall down. There is no other girl in the world, no matter how pretty, that can replace her in my heart. But I didn't have enough strength to talk to her.

I wonder why I had to have a crush on her. Probably god wanted to enlighten my path. She was the person who had changed me completely, inside out.

Just now I met a girl from Civic center. she looked perfectly normal, or what I would call is very ordinary, just like any other schoolgirls. But one thing that struck me is that she looked EXACTLY like her, from the body figure, posture to hairstyle, everything almost the same, except for her face, which is slightly more good-looking. I was half-dead when I saw her, and I almost felt the urge to talk to her, to ask for her number. SHE DID LOOKED BACK AT ME, not once or twice, but 5 times, well man I think she also likes me, for a shortwhile. I regretted not asking that ACJC girl.