Confession.

To be honest, the reason why I don't want and don't really have a stable relationship with any girl is because I lose interests way too quickly. Sometimes there are a few girls where I really want to stay together with, but after I got into her heart, when she almost fell to me, I started to lose interest and change my target at rapid rate. Personally I think, a stable relationship is way too boring for me. And I become bored very quickly, too quickly for me to even realize.

Not unless I have a huge crush on somebody. In my whole life, there are only 2 people that actually and really moved me; my very first love, and a girl which I met 2 years ago. Both have lots of things in common: close birthdays, strong character (I don't know, I don't really like shy girls, no matter how pretty.), very smart (both are older than me and studied in good schools and have very stable life.), have enjoyable life, both love me in the heart, and were left by me! I know it's damn cruel and stupid but I don't know, it's my nature. Back then I was an idiot, and with time I learn.

After a while I got into contact with my first girlfriend. She confessed she still liked me a lot, probably the guys back there didn't satisfy her needs. For the second one, from some reliable sources, I realized that she already has a new boyfriend, a very stable relationship. (Ahem, she's in uni.). I don't know whether she still likes me but I'm sure that guy is with her after I left. When I first heard this, I was very heartbroken, but that died down probably half a year ago, when this girl Cassandra came into my life. Unfortunately, now Cassandra also hates me because of some misunderstanding I have yet to uncovered.

Another story of mine: in sec 1, one girl really liked me, but I had a crush on the other one, and she didn't notice until much later, which consequently caused a lot of confusions and catastrophes. When she realized that, she cried uncontrollably on the stage, and I was the one to blame. Her friends started to sabotage me, and some of my classmates, who are really gangsters even in sec 1, and they were very big, provoked me with fights. I don't know what fighting is like in Singapore, but in Vietnam it is real violence! Even in school, no one will dare to stop you. You might even die on the spot if security didn't come in time. That's why I took some self-defence. It's a better way to join gang though.

Probably I'm a bad guy, because a good guy won't make a girl cry. So don't come for me even if you find me very attractive.

My fate will come and god will choose for me the most suitable one, so I don't need to rush. I have a very carefree personality so probably that doesn't bring me to any girl, though a lot of girls actually compliment me with my looks, and sometimes my brains (Sorry, but this is so wrong honestly, I'm stupid!)

Probably I need 10 strokes of canning from mommy to teach me how to appreciate love.

Lol, after posting this, I guess I have to hide this from any potential girlfriend of mine. xD

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It's time I look for a job in Singapore.